Skills acquired so far
- Smooth eye movements, improved vergence amplitudes and eye alignment
- Improved accommodation amplitudes and continuing improvement with flippers
- Stabilizing Vestibulo-Ocular Reflex
- Being able to judge depth using physiological diplopia and reference cue
Left to do:
- Automation and stamina
- Integration, integration, integration.
- My VT seems to be expecting I'll see some float in the Vectograms rather soon. To accomplish this I have to widen the span of my visual field. That's hard for me. Most of my life I've been busy suppressing my peripheral vision as an adaptation to strabismus. When I try to include more objects into my field of attention my gaze tends to get unsteady. This happens because my limited attention resource partly shifts from eye alignment to the widening of visual intake. That will be the next hurdle to take. "Bring in the periphery!" as my Italian friend Llaria likes to say.
Nice list of acquired skills though. What a journey it has already been over the last three and a half years... Every summer things look different. I'll keep inching forward and by next summer we'll have some good and honest 'float'. Ha!
Wednesday, August 13, 2014
Thursday, August 7, 2014
Some of my current home based VT activities
Everything we do or don't do has neurological consequences. That's why everything we do or don't do matters.
It's important to note that these activities are not suitable for every VT patient. Nor are they suitable at any stage in the rehabilitation process. They are suitable for me because my ability to control my eyes has reached a level allowing me to handle these activities without imploding, albeit with appropriate rest. Getting to this stage has taken a long time. I've had to do a lot of boring ground work first. Expanding the range of ocular movements, improving saccades, tracking and so on. VT is an active form of patience.
2. Wearing a translucent filter on my glasses in order to stimulate my left eye and the neurology behind it. I do it in the morning when I'm relatively crisp. Initially doing this was a serious source of energy drainage. The filter in front of the 'good eye' makes the 'lazy' eye work harder in terms of acuity. It also forces me to acquire more dexterity relying on the more impaired eye. Lastly, there's a higher tendency for my eyes to go EXO with the filter requiring more of an alignment effort. To sum up: it works on acuity, eye motility and general integration of the eye into the nervous system.
8. Yoked prisms. These powerful prisms, used with bases to one side, shift your entire visual field to the direction of your choice. The lenses are adjustable. I use them bases up, down, left and right. By doing so I train internal adjustment to new visual circumstances. More specifically they stress test the brain's ability to ajust its egocentric localization, eye and body posture as well as sense of balance and spatial vision. I have found them very useful in terms of aligning my subjectively perceived and objective midline which is often an issue in strabismus patients. Be careful with these toys though. Don't use them for more than 10 minutes at a time or you might suddenly get licked. They are effective but exhausting. I don't use them every day either. That said, I've had my most 'unusual' visual experiences after using yoked prisms.
It's important to note that these activities are not suitable for every VT patient. Nor are they suitable at any stage in the rehabilitation process. They are suitable for me because my ability to control my eyes has reached a level allowing me to handle these activities without imploding, albeit with appropriate rest. Getting to this stage has taken a long time. I've had to do a lot of boring ground work first. Expanding the range of ocular movements, improving saccades, tracking and so on. VT is an active form of patience.
Another important reason of why these activities are appropriate for me as a VT patient is that my central suppression, especially while moving, is very poor. This means there is a very strong incentive for me to use both eyes and align them, rather than trying to suppress one eye. That's a very important point. Taking that into consideration, this means that I'm ALWAYS doing VT. I'm always trying to align my eyes and see binocularly because there's no alternative as there would be in a strabismic with good suppression. That's exhausting, particularly when trying to get out of an initial post-surgery double vision situation. Yet this might have some advantages at a later VT stage.
So what do I do outside the VT office?
1. Bar reading or, when more tired, listening to a text with TextAloud while tracking the words with my eyes. Even without suppression controls, I know when I'm doing it right when the text doesn't go double. The audio support while reading brings some relieve to my vision while still being able to practice saccades and integrate vision, audio and reading comprehension. Over time I feel like the saccades become easier and the audio support is less necessary. I'm gradually inserting prism and spherical flippers into the process to keep it challenging. So far however, (bar) reading hasn't been particularly easy yet.
1. Bar reading or, when more tired, listening to a text with TextAloud while tracking the words with my eyes. Even without suppression controls, I know when I'm doing it right when the text doesn't go double. The audio support while reading brings some relieve to my vision while still being able to practice saccades and integrate vision, audio and reading comprehension. Over time I feel like the saccades become easier and the audio support is less necessary. I'm gradually inserting prism and spherical flippers into the process to keep it challenging. So far however, (bar) reading hasn't been particularly easy yet.
2. Wearing a translucent filter on my glasses in order to stimulate my left eye and the neurology behind it. I do it in the morning when I'm relatively crisp. Initially doing this was a serious source of energy drainage. The filter in front of the 'good eye' makes the 'lazy' eye work harder in terms of acuity. It also forces me to acquire more dexterity relying on the more impaired eye. Lastly, there's a higher tendency for my eyes to go EXO with the filter requiring more of an alignment effort. To sum up: it works on acuity, eye motility and general integration of the eye into the nervous system.
3. When having to rest, meaning I just want to stare, I sometimes watch some kind of series or movie. When I'm up for it I use the flippers while watching. It's less tiresome than using them while reading because the eyes are more stationary. In fact, the spherical flippers help to relax my eyes when they are all tensed up. It's like stretching soar muscles.
When watching I also like to put a finger (or a remote) in front of my face. If I see two of them I am sure I'm not suppressing part of the view. (physiological diplopia)
4. Head turns. My Vestibulo-Ocular Reflex hasn't been working properly for a long time. This means that when my head moved, my eyes didn't make the appropriate compensatory movements to maintain a stable world view. This year (my 4th VT year) this has finally been leveling out and my eyes do make the appropriate movements for the world to stay fixed and stable. This new and highly anticipated skill isn't entirely reliable as it often gives way when I get tired. That's why I often check up on it and train it for short intervals by making head turns. My VOR needs further refinement, integration and staying power.
5. Anaglyphs: I play with these cards or other anaglyph visuals when I feel like it. Lately it's more fun because I can figure out the DEPTH in them by using my hand and physiological diplopia as a reference. It helps the learning process of corelating eye posture, image disparity and distance. The needed information is being picked up by my brain but I need to further automate these inferences. In the VT office we also use vectograms.
When watching I also like to put a finger (or a remote) in front of my face. If I see two of them I am sure I'm not suppressing part of the view. (physiological diplopia)
4. Head turns. My Vestibulo-Ocular Reflex hasn't been working properly for a long time. This means that when my head moved, my eyes didn't make the appropriate compensatory movements to maintain a stable world view. This year (my 4th VT year) this has finally been leveling out and my eyes do make the appropriate movements for the world to stay fixed and stable. This new and highly anticipated skill isn't entirely reliable as it often gives way when I get tired. That's why I often check up on it and train it for short intervals by making head turns. My VOR needs further refinement, integration and staying power.
5. Anaglyphs: I play with these cards or other anaglyph visuals when I feel like it. Lately it's more fun because I can figure out the DEPTH in them by using my hand and physiological diplopia as a reference. It helps the learning process of corelating eye posture, image disparity and distance. The needed information is being picked up by my brain but I need to further automate these inferences. In the VT office we also use vectograms.
6. Lately I'm playing a lot of football (soccer), sometimes with the translucent filter in front of my left eye. Movement is good. Interaction with the environment is good. Messing around with a football is good visio-motor exercise. When my eyes stop aligning because of fatigue I notice two footballs and know it's time to call it a day. It's important not only to get both eyes working together but also to integrate them into a moving body. I put special emphasis on using both feet and both sides of my body, mixing it up and trying to stay aware of the entire visual field and physiological diplopia. Football may not be for everyone but I have some very fond memories of playing football as a child so I try to tap into that. Positive emotions and enthusiasm are very important in terms of motivation and creating new pathways in the brain.
7. Recently I had ten days of access to a trampoline. You'd think it doesn't really make that much of a difference but it does. When getting off the trampoline the world feels like it's moving beneath your feet. It's similar to disembarking a boat. Trampolines are great to further load and consolidate visio-motor and vestibulo-ocular skills. If that gets easy, you can further load the exercise with cognitive processing. Have a look at this cool exercise: http://www.oepf.org/sites/default/files/journals/jbo-volume-21-issue-3/21-3%20Slotnick.pdf
8. Yoked prisms. These powerful prisms, used with bases to one side, shift your entire visual field to the direction of your choice. The lenses are adjustable. I use them bases up, down, left and right. By doing so I train internal adjustment to new visual circumstances. More specifically they stress test the brain's ability to ajust its egocentric localization, eye and body posture as well as sense of balance and spatial vision. I have found them very useful in terms of aligning my subjectively perceived and objective midline which is often an issue in strabismus patients. Be careful with these toys though. Don't use them for more than 10 minutes at a time or you might suddenly get licked. They are effective but exhausting. I don't use them every day either. That said, I've had my most 'unusual' visual experiences after using yoked prisms.
9. Deck of cards exercise. It's similar to the 'classic' accommodative rock exercise. Get yourself two decks of cards. Tape one on the window, hold one in your hand and start scanning the window looking for corresponding cards. Emphasize accuracy, binocularity and physiological diplopia. Do it well rather than fast.
10. Taking walks. As for integration of the eyes into the body walking is perfect. Fast is easy, slow is hard. Running is not bad either but you might be paying less attention to the visuals and wasting a lot of energy that could be used for visual consolidation. Vision first, running later. That's how I see it. While walking, take care of your visual experience: eye alignment, physiological diplopia and just being aware of your body and the view. Don't just go walking around dull-minded with ear-buds.
11. Being aware of my left side and using my left hand sometimes. As my left eye is my amblyopic eye, my right brain hemisphere needs fitness. This is almost surely a gross oversimplification but nonetheless trying to become more bilateral is part of becoming more binocular. Eg. if there's no time pressure I try to use my left hand. My mother told me that before I developed strabismus and amblyopia due to undetected farsightedness at age three, it was very hard for my kindergarden teachers or herself to tell whether I was left or right handed. I was just using either one. Then when I became strabismic the right side heavily dominated things visually and motorically. The chauvinist left hemisphere started hindering the development of my right hemisphere, visually and otherwise. Apparently, as I'm recovering, this is somewhat being reversed. Sometimes when I'm bored I doodle. Yesterday I was doodling with my left hand and noticed I could draw reasonably well with my left hand too. This is new!
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| Left hand drawing |
12. Thump-Pinky Vergence Rock. An exercise similar to the Brock String. The best thing about this exercise is that it works on the integration of visual and proprioceptive input. This is often a decisive factor in getting ahead.
13. Doing somersaults with my eyes open until I get dizzy. Usually three. That's another Vestibulo-Ocular Reflex integration exercise.
Obviously these activities are not exhaustive. There are many ways to combine and load activities according to your current level. I also don't do all of them every day. Rather, I try to make whatever I'm doing into a visual exercise. If you have some idea how a healthy visual system is supposed to work, you can aspire to that goal. Just as important as what you do, is how you do it. In the end, life is just one big visual exercise!
Aside from exercising, I'm also eating a lot. It appears that I have already reached one of the goals I set for next year. In two to three months I've gained 6 kilograms bringing me up to 75kgs. This takes my BMI (height=1,85m) from 19.9 to 21.9. I'd been trying to gain weight for a long time but I guess I'm finally calm enough for it to stick.
I'm mentally preparing myself for the fact that eliminating the residual Convergence Insufficiency and other visual instabilities up to a workable level will likely take another year to year and a half. With some luck and steady work I'll be an 80kg binocular machine by next year. That reminds me... I need to go eat something!
Obviously these activities are not exhaustive. There are many ways to combine and load activities according to your current level. I also don't do all of them every day. Rather, I try to make whatever I'm doing into a visual exercise. If you have some idea how a healthy visual system is supposed to work, you can aspire to that goal. Just as important as what you do, is how you do it. In the end, life is just one big visual exercise!
Aside from exercising, I'm also eating a lot. It appears that I have already reached one of the goals I set for next year. In two to three months I've gained 6 kilograms bringing me up to 75kgs. This takes my BMI (height=1,85m) from 19.9 to 21.9. I'd been trying to gain weight for a long time but I guess I'm finally calm enough for it to stick.
I'm mentally preparing myself for the fact that eliminating the residual Convergence Insufficiency and other visual instabilities up to a workable level will likely take another year to year and a half. With some luck and steady work I'll be an 80kg binocular machine by next year. That reminds me... I need to go eat something!
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